I was a believer as a young child. At age 12 I almost died, didn’t phase me a bit because I trusted Jesus as my Savior.
At age 21 I doubted my salvation because of my lifesyle. There was a voice inside of me asking me to consider the “last day” a year earlier. Convinced I needed to be born again I became desperate and started seeking the LORD JESUS (Who is the LORD by the way) and was scared of going to hell. I knew the Gospel and believed it. At a Church service I gazed upon the cross and it became so personal. Months later I knew I needed to hear from God. Starting to explain my situation at a Bible Study the men got up and started to pray for me. I began trembling and started to feel a presence I’ve never felt. A woman began to explain that the Holy Spirit entered the room and she almost cried with me! On the way home I felt the peace beyond all understanding. The next few weeks, the Joy of the LORD.
Several compromises later I’m terrified that somehow I don’t have the Spirit. I’m not as close as I was. HE is the desire of my heart still and I want to live my life in a way that keeps me in fellowship with HIM. I hope I’m not a Judas or a castaway. Many different doctrines on this. Please, HELP!!!